Home is where you dump your stuff

poem is on iron post of the train shelter


Invisible in the Torn Out Interiors


by Dara Wier



A man looked at us across his little dish

Of watercress and peas and said he’d wasted

Five years. We couldn’t ask him doing what?

He said he knew he’d let some thing alive die

And didn’t know how to get it back again now

That it was gone. He looked as if he were

About to cry, as if a fresh death wanted him

To mourn. He talked as if the place he’d been

Had so unwelcomed him it had ruined his soul,

As if it were a place into which drained an

Absolute dead air. He said he’d left no friends

Behind, no one who’d notice he was gone.

And here he was without a job, no place his to

Live, no one his to love. We said welcome home.



As I write this post, a man and woman next to me at Starbucks engage in an electric exchange.  The man, bald with a salt and pepper beard, looks ten years older than his companion, although her long dark hair curtains my view of her face.  He leans forward; her body is angled awkwardly towards the exit.  He has a briefcase at his side; a stack of papers covers the table.  Amidst the clatter and phizzes coming from behind the counter and the loud laughter of a group of old Armenian men, I can only hear dollops of their conversation.  You have never supported me, she says.  Just hear me out, he replies.  Later he says, Let me tell you a story about my 69-year old father.


She never seems as relaxed as he is.  At any moment she may spring up on her high heels and leave.  Without hearing much of their conversation, I don’t know if their debate is personal or professional, and I can’t gauge the degree of their intimacy.  I’ll leave without ever knowing what their issue is and if they resolved it. But I do know that that there is some kind of hurt between them that matters deeply to both of them; and I’ll think about them all day and perhaps tomorrow too.


And so with Dara Wier’s poem “Invisible in the Torn Out Interiors.”  Reading this poem is as frustrating as my eavesdropping on the couple in the noisy coffee shop.  I don’t fully understand the relationship between the three characters and I never will.  I could dismiss it, the way I dismiss other things not easily understood, like computer codes, economic policy, complicated driving directions.  But I don’t dismiss it.  Something pulls me towards it.


Wier gives out just enough information to give the reader a toehold on what’s going on.  Two people listen to a man’s anguish.  He is eating a watercress salad on a little plate.  I get a whole picture of the scene just from that little detail.  It’s the only visual detail in the entire poem, but the watercress on the little plate is so evocative of gender and class that it carries the rest of the poem on its delicate little legs.


The salad and the “torn out interiors” of the title suggest a renovated space, a restaurant, as I see it, a ladies’ lunch kind of place with windows and lots of light.  There’s a sense of unreality and inappropriateness to a man unburdening himself of his suffering in such a public, feminine space.


The man speaks of spending five years in a toxic, soul-destroying atmosphere. He describes a passive role in letting something die.  His anguish extends to this new place where he has no friends, no job, no place to live.  The women listening to him say, perhaps sarcastically, perhaps with genuine warmth, Welcome home.


The reader can’t help but feel sympathy for the man’s situation but also strangely  distant from it.  The woman’s uninflected summary of his words and that odd detail of the watercress salad lend a sense of the absurd to the episode.  I’m reminded of  Russian writers who color expressions of oversized emotions with a certain comic detachment.  Think of the opening lines from Chekov’s The Seagull:


Medvedenko: Why do you wear black all the time?

Masha: I’m in mourning for my life.


My toehold in this poem never leads to stable footing.  “Invisible in the Torn Out Interiors” is as cryptic and mysterious as its title.  I’m left with these questions:


1.  What is the nature of the relationship between the two listeners and the man?  Is he a stranger?  They refer to him as “a” man so they don’t seem to know him. He’s a very strange stranger, voluble, perhaps mentally ill, an ancient mariner spilling out his shame.  At the end of the poem the women (or maybe they aren’t women) welcome him home, so perhaps he isn’t a stranger after all.  And these lines puzzle me:


he’d wasted

Five years. We couldn’t ask him doing what?


Why can’t they ask him how he wasted five years?  Do they know the awful answer and are too polite to mention it over the watercress salad?  Either a lack of intimacy or a lack of stability on his part prevents an open conversation.


2.  What was the “something alive” that he “let die”?  A relationship?  A cat?  A house plant?  Some quality in himself he failed to nourish?


3.  What does the ending mean?  Is it a deadpan joke or a genuine welcoming?  If he has truly come home and they are holding out their pineapples and leis, are they hurt when he says he has no one to love here?


Feel free to weigh in with your own impressions.  I may have talked myself into a version of this poem that’s mine and mine alone.


I taped the poem to a shelter that offered a little protection from rain and bitter winds at a train station.  I left it for anyone returning home and for those welcoming someone back.  I was thinking in particular about college students coming home for spring break.  Adults love to tell kids that college is the best four years of their lives, but sometimes it isn’t.  College can be dreary and lonely.  Roommate issues, homesickness, regrets over hook-ups and drunken dramas, grade stress and money worries can all be dispiriting and sometimes even soul-crushing.  Home, I hope, but of course it isn’t always, is a place to take rest from all those wearying tribulations.  Home is where you are welcomed.  And judging from my own college kids’ homecoming,

home is where you can do your laundry for free.


Dara Wier was born in 1949 in New Orleans.  Despite her parents’ sensible wish for her to become a pharmacist, she got her MFA at Bowling Green and became a poet.  She has published 11 books of poetry; her work has appeared in several anthologies and she has won numerous awards and fellowships, among them a Pushcart Prize and an NEA grant.  She directs the MFA program at University of Massachusetts Amherst where her husband, poet James Tate, also teaches.





  1. Kelly

    Enjoyed your poem and your insights about college – my husband’s “best 4 years of his life” for sure! Mine just full of hard work and a reasonable amount of fun. The poem sounds to me like a person who has been drunk or on drugs for 5 years and is now coming to meet 2 people from a rehab facility or shelter where they are welcoming him home. His state of addiction might be the reason they could not ask what he had been doing – he would not remember. If he were living in a world or drugs or addiction then it would be a place where he would not be missed upon leaving. Therefore he may have let everything in his life die and has hit rock bottom and is seeking help from the 2 companions at the table…..

    I am also intrigued by your starbucks couple – perhaps you should get that “whisper 2000” listening gadget to let you hear those conversations better!

  2. Trish Rawlings

    I was drawn to this great little poem….

    What I felt about the “welcome home” were two things.

    One, the writer/viewer is feeling a kinship with this man and his regrets, etc. His welcome home is saying bud, you have landed in the right place! Everybody here has the same regrets and sadnesses you have! This is one moody town!

    Two, and sorta an extension of the same idea, the welcome home is saying we as humans each share this man’s state of mind at some time or other, this is the human condition–if we’d only fess up to it. This stranger’s raw candor–like the candor of some cabbies and solitary bar partrons after the third Coors–is so seldom encountered. The poet/listener responds to this frankness with a welcoming greeting. The human condition is the home we all share.

    I saw the salad as a kind of correlative of the man’s openness, lack of false pride–for some reason “watercress” sounds like the perfect accompaniment to a burst of refreshing, honest confession. I have no idea what watercress is and never have, but it sounds like something that has come straight down a waterfall, been splashed green by clear, perfect stream water. Something pure and honest ,like this sad man…

    When I was in the hospital those two days last spring I lay there on the ER stretcher with the line running through my head

    Home is where when you have to go there they have to take you in

    but I was replacing the word home with hospital.

    Then I also would think right after of the line that always cracks me up

    Home is where you can scratch where you itch.


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